After a month, I am finally settled in at my new home and job in Corpus Christi. After several weeks of graduation, packing and moving, hours of orientation at work, weekends filled with family and friends, and new classes, here I am, just me. And as much as I would like to say I love it, it’s just not that easy. I feel stuck, stuck in the middle of competing pressures. I am torn between a boyfriend and a place I consider my home in College Station and my new lifestyle in Corpus. I am torn between pressures to innovate on research projects, devote time to being a good teacher and emotional and physical exhaustion. I am torn between being a graduate student and being a new professor. I am trying to sort through it all, and while it all keeps going, I just want to linger in the middle. Just stay stuck for awhile. I know classes must be taught, research proposals have to be written, and life has to go on. But until I am ready to move forward, I just want to stay here - stuck in the middle with, well, me.
Yes I'm stuck in the middle with you
And I'm wondering what it is I should do
It's so hard to keep this smile from my face
Losing control yeah, I'm all over the place
Clowns to the left of me, jokers to the right, here I am
Stuck in the middle with you.
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